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Secret Agent Man - Erotic Story
Posted:Oct 8, 2019 2:21 pm
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Let's clear up a few things, shall we?

I am writing a novel. You are getting the Preview Aka: Rough Draft

This Novel is a Combination of Science Fiction, Erotica, Spy Novel, Comedy, NON Fiction, Drama, and Suspense.

This Enigma is Pulling Parts of Her Novel From REAL Life Events, and Parts are Fictionalized.

This Enigma Feels as Though This is the BESTEST way start Her Career as a Novelist.

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Grace
Posted:Nov 16, 2019 12:41 pm
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Will Continue, First Comment
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I Will Survive
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Happier
Posted:Nov 15, 2019 4:26 am
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One of the things I did when I was at the party One Love was talk with the women about how they take care of themselves on a budget. When one lives in poverty, we can't always afford to do the things others do in order to practice self care.



The ladies being the warm hearted Jamaicans they are, filled me in that many of their husbands make sure they have the to be able to afford things like pedicures and massages. It always amazes me the differences in culture. Do you know that I've never had one man treat me to something that was purely self care?

I mean, sure, Logan0867 is really great about making sure we do some seriously fun things. However, he's really been the only man has consistently tried to take care of my personal needs beyond sex. Not to mention, he's always ready to listen to me rant, rave, and just be sad. That, my friends, is a REAL MAN. I know if he could afford it, he would do more. That's why I'm ever so grateful for him and everything he does for me.



After chatting with the ladies some more, the one wasn't married or otherwise engaged told me that every night she takes a bath, then slathers herself with lotion; lights candles; climbs into bed; and watches whatever she wants on ye ole boob tube. I asked if she was ever able to afford massages or the like, she confessed she sometimes did, on her birthday.



Earlier this month, I did a “staycation” at a local hotel. I spent my self care hoping to get “lucky” with Storm. Yeah, I got “lucky” all right, then I was heavily disappointed. Not the first time, that's for facking sure. It is what it is, amirite?



What did I do last night? I followed the advice of my new Jamaican friend with her lyrical voice and warm smile. I romanced my damn self.



After a lovely bubble bath where I listened to a mix of music, I lit the candles above my bed. Then, I slathered my “LostBoys” Cream all over my body, and climbed into my bed. Then? I watched Avengers for the umpteenth time because I'm a nerd, and fell asleep early like the middle aged cat lady that I am.

Thank You For Reading

Debbi

Happier
By
Marshmello

Lately, I've been, I've been thinking
I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier
When the morning comes
When we see what we've become
In the cold light of day we're a flame in the wind
Not the fire that we've begun
Every argument, every word we can't take back
'Cause with the all that has happened
I think that we both know the way that the story ends
Then only for a minute
I want to change my mind
'Cause this just don't feel right to me
I want to raise your spirits
I want to see you smile but
Know that means I'll have to leave
Know that means I'll have to leave
Lately, I've been, I've been thinking
I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier
When the evening falls
And I'm left there with my thoughts
And the image of you being with someone else
Well, that's eating me up inside
But we run our course, we pretend that we're okay
Now if we jump together at least we can swim
Far away from the wreck we made
Then only for a minute
I want to change my mind
'Cause this just don't feel right to me
I want to raise your spirits
I want to see you smile but
Know that means I'll have to leave
Know that means I'll have to leave
Lately, I've been, I've been thinking
I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier
So I'll go, I'll go
I will go, go, go
So I'll go, I'll go
I will go, go, go
Lately, I've been, I've been thinking
I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier
Even though I might not like this
I think that you'll be happier, I want you to be happier
Then only for a minute (only for a minute)
I want to change my mind
'Cause this just don't feel right to me
I want to raise your spirits
I want to see you smile but
Know that means I'll have to leave
Know that means I'll have to leave
Lately, I've been, I've been thinking
I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier
So I'll go, I'll go
I will go, go, go
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Marshmello / Daniel Campbell Smith / Steve McCutcheon
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Natural
Posted:Nov 14, 2019 7:34 am
Last Updated:Nov 15, 2019 4:52 am
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Last night, when I got home from the party, One Love . I texted Storm. Actually, I was texting Storm throughout the night because I freaked out over eating goat and going to a party alone. Shit, I even procrastinated about going over there. I'm an introvert who hates going to parties alone. I've said it before, and I'll say it again...I'm perfectly happy being alone...most of the time.

Add that to the FACT that I only knew two people at a party of at least twentyfour? Well, come on, you all know mybrain was freaking out. Don't get me wrong, I pushed myway through. I'm a tough old broad who can “” her way through a situation, but I used to rely...heavily...on alcohol to get me through those situations.

As I said here? Protection Me and alcohol don't mix well with boundaries. I'm not good to myself when I drink too much. I don't think things through well. It's not good for me, not the version of me that loves herself.

So, last night? My conversation with Storm ended with me telling him that Roses adult padawan was sexy. I know it was wrong....NOW. I get it was the alcohol talking, but I doubt Storm does. Maybe I'm wrong, but I get this heavy feeling in my heart that is either logic related or CPTSD related. Difficult to know which, since he left me hanging.

This, my friends, what I mean when I say I don't feel heard many people in my life. I understand, fully, that I do shit...but when one leaves me hanging in a conversation? I feel abandoned. That, then, triggers it's own weird firing in my brain wiring.

Love is beautiful in many ways, but when you feel ignored?

That hurts the most.

Thank You For Reading

“Natural”

Imagine Dragons

Will you hold the line?
When every one of them is giving up or giving in, tell me
In this house of mine?
Nothing ever comes without a consequence or , tell me
Will the stars align?
Will heaven step in? Will it save us from our sin? Will it?
'Cause this house of mine stands strong
That's the you
Leave behind your heartache, cast away
Just another product of today
Rather be the hunter than the prey
And you're standing on the edge, face up 'cause you're a
Natural
A beating heart of stone
You gotta be so cold
To make it in this world
Yeah, you're a natural
Living your life cutthroat
You gotta be so cold
Yeah, you're a natural
Will somebody
Let me see the light within the dark trees' shadows and
What's happenin'?
Lookin' through the glass find the wrong within the past knowin'
We are the youth
Cut until it bleeds, inside a world without the peace facing
A bit of the truth, the truth
That's the you
Leave behind your heartache, cast away
Just another product of today
Rather be the hunter than the prey
And you're standing on the edge, face up 'cause you're a
Natural
A beating heart of stone
You gotta be so cold
To make it in this world
Yeah, you're a natural
Living your life cutthroat
You gotta be so cold
Yeah, you're a natural
Deep inside me, I'm fading to black, I'm fading
Took an oath the blood of my hand, won't break it
I can taste it, the end is upon us, I swear
Gonna make it
I'm gonna make it
Natural
A beating heart of stone
You gotta be so cold
To make it in this world
Yeah, you're a natural
Living your life cutthroat
You gotta be so cold
Yeah, you're a natural
Natural
Yeah, you're a natural
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Robin Fredriksson / Mattias Larsson / Justin Tranter / Daniel Platzman / Ben McKee / Wayne Sermon / Dan Reynolds
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Protection
Posted:Nov 14, 2019 6:41 am
Last Updated:Nov 16, 2019 9:35 am
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One Love

I need protection, all right. FromMYSELF

Look, I have a ton of anxieties and weird thoughts running through this ole noggin of mine. You know why? Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

(C-PTSD; also known as complex trauma disorder) is a psychological disorder that can develop in response to prolonged, repeated experience of interpersonal trauma in a context in which the individual has little or no chance of escape. C-PTSD relates to the trauma model of mental disorders and is associated with chronic sexual, psychological and physical and neglect, chronic intimate partner violence, victims of kidnapping and hostage situations, indentured servants, victims of slavery and human trafficking, sweatshop workers, prisoners of war, concentration camp survivors, defectors of cults or cult-like organizations, and narcissistic . Situations involving captivity/entrapment (a situation lacking a viable escape route for the victim or a perception of such) can lead to C-PTSD-like symptoms, which can include prolonged feelings of terror, worthlessness, helplessness, and deformation of one's identity and sense of self. C-PTSD has also been referred to as DESNOS or Disorders of Extreme Stress Not Otherwise Specified.

Look, I make bad decisions, quite often, based on a model of behavior that has been instilled intome since I was a padawan. A pattern of activity where I was taught to lie to my elders my wicked stepgrandfather; taught to submit to men; reinforced throughout myteen years; and ran wild since the end of my first marriage.

I need protection from the enemy of love, MYFUCKINGSELF.

Yes, siree

I run from love, I have for so long I've forgotten how to stop. I push boundaries; it's what all those around me taught me. And, I failed to break those habits; I'm trying NOW. But, peeps, this shit isn't as easy as one may think. It's not like I've had all that much practice with good boundary keeping.

I left the party early last night because after three glasses of wine? I was ready to make some seriously BAD decisions. I knew it was time to go home and be in my own space for a while. Ain't no one who loves me wants an “autobot or autofuck” Debbi.

It's not safe for my brain, it's not safe for my body.

And, them's the facts peeps.

Thank You For Reading.

Protection Lucinda Williams

I was [?] as God is the witness, a crowdie bar when nobody could hear
Now I travel throw the world with no occasion
And I do, I do it all my own sweet
I need protection from the power of your love
I need protection from the [?]
I need protection from the [?]
I need protection from the enemy and consciences
Give me protection from the [?] of love
I'm be planning to the world all alone
Put you in throw to find a home
I tell you what travel will repeat
My own make me stay on my two feet
I need protection from the power of your love
I need protection from the [?]
I need protection from the [?] of rock and rill
I need protection from the enemy of soul
Give me protection from the [?] of love
You know the people look at and talk about me
Throw up my hands it's crowd out with
But the world gonna stay, and go without me
So I still get up and I keep on try
Living in a world full of endless trouble
Living in a world with darkness double
But my dirty [?] when I stand up
And you forgive what I'm giving for no giving up
I need protection from the power of your love
I need protection from the [?]
I need protection from the [?] of rock and rill
I need protection from the enemy of soul
Give me protection from the [?] of love
I need protection
Give me protection
I need protection
Give me protection
Yeah I need protection
Give me protection
I need protection
Give me protection
Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: Lucinda Williams

Natural
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One Love
Posted:Nov 14, 2019 4:56 am
Last Updated:Nov 15, 2019 4:28 am
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Last night, my next neighbors invited me over for a celebration. It was Ms Rose's (pseudonym) 's birthday, and all the family nearby showed to celebrate it. You all, it was such an honor to be included in this joyous occasion. I can't tell you all how incredibly lucky I felt.

I'm not going to tell you everything that happened, but will say that being the only white person didn't feel as big of a deal as I thought it would. I will say that I made a LOT of “WhiteGirl” jokes, and got some great laughs. Look, they gave me wine, and to say I was tipsy is an understatement. I mean talk about a “cheap date”. Two glasses of wine and I'm flirting with her . Three glasses, and I'm all like...let's dance!



The music was popping, a mix of Reggae, , and Oldies. It was FIRE, people. FIRE! Talk about feeling as though I was living in a dream. I've never been to Jamaica and have always wanted to go. Then? There's their accents. People, I didn't even need music. Talk about lyrical, I sat there listening to each one speak intently. I didn't want to miss a thing.

Being able to compare their cultural traditions against ours, well...that just appealed to my more analytical side. There's a lot of differences, and they do many of the same things we do too. Look, y'all I'm a nerd who loves sociology, words, music, food, art, culture. Dear Lord, it was a party in my head and a party in the room.

The food? Well, y'all, when in Rome, one does as the Roman's do, amirite?



I ATE GOAT

(holds for applause )

Curried Goat

It was SOOOOOOO GOOOOOOD. It was like beef.

Ms Rose, she reminded me so much of mymother, though. Y'all, she kept putting food on my plate



First time I ate plantains and liked them.



Jerk Chicken was dynamite.

And, I was in a food coma by the end of the night.

We sang, we danced, and had FUN!

Being included in this Jamaican family festivity warmed my heart and tickled my soul.

That, my friends, is what one calls Yanging the Enigma Way.

Inclusion NOT Division

Andrew Yang for President
Diversity Is Our Strength
Not Left, Not Right....FORWARD
Yang2020()

Better Believe we're Better Together

https://www.youtube/watch?v=vdB-8eLEW8g

“One Love”

Bob Marley

One love
One heart
Let's get together and feel alright
(hear the crying)
One love (hear the crying)
One heart (sayin'
Give thanks and praise to the Lord and I will feel alright (sayin'
Let's get together and feel alright
(whoa whoa whoa whoa)
Let them all pass, all their dirty remarks (one love)
There is one question I'd really love to ask (one heart)
Is there a place for the hopeless sinners
Who has hurt all mankind just to save his own (believe)
One love (what about one heart)
One heart (what about love)
Let's get together and feel alright (as it was in the beginning)
One love (so shall it be in the end)
One heart (alright)
Give thanks and praise to the Lord and I will feel alright
Let's get together and feel alright
(one more thing)
Let's get together to fight this Holy Armageddon (one love)
So when the Man come, there will be no no doom (one song)
Have pity on those whose chances grows thinner
There ain't no hiding place from the Father of creation (sayin'
One love (what about one heart)
One heart (what about love)
Let's get together and feel alright (I'm pleading to mankind)
One love (what about one heart)
One heart (oh oh)
Give thanks and praise to the Lord and I will feel alright
Let's get together and feel alright
(give thanks and praise to the Lord and I will feel alright)
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Bob Marley / Curtis Mayfield

Protection
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HNW: Cat Lady Style
Posted:Nov 13, 2019 1:37 pm
Last Updated:Nov 16, 2019 12:45 pm
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Half Naked Wednesday Cat Lady Style

So, true hippie living gypsy style, I'm diverging from the norm.

(George, she's it again, she doesn't follow the rulez very well, does she?

Rather than showing you body, I'm laying emotions bare you all.

This is Blondie



You may remember him from this post: [post 42682].



Him and Night Stalker have a “bromance”



It's really quite adorbz

He's, now, “LoverBoy”



Make no mistake, “chose” the fall last year, he just made work for it.



://www.youtube./watch?v=hWSLgpQGw3I

“Queen of the Broken Hearts”
By
LoverBoy

Both sides are fightin'
You don't know choose
You're stuck in the middle
And you can't lose
Both sides are talkin'
You've finally seen the light
You'll get it together
But not tonight
You were born with it
And now you got it
The way you want it
And you don't care
Cause nothin's gonna bring you down
You were born with it
And now you got it
And oooh you flaunt it
And you don't care
'Cause nothin's gonna bring you down,
No
But she's not kind of
I'm tellin' all the world
She was born the Queen of the Broken Hearts
She says she'll write you letters
But ain't face face
She'll give you a
But it's not her place...oh
Don't keep her waiting
Now see what you have done
You look in the mirror
It ain't no fun
You were born with it
And now you got it
The way you want it
And you don't care
Cause nothin's gonna bring you down,
No
You were born with it
And now you got it
And oh you flaunt it
And you don't care
'Cause nothin's gonna bring you down,
No
But she's not kind of
I'm tellin' all the world
She was born the Queen of the Broken Hearts
'Cause she's not kind of
I'm tellin' all the world
She was born the Queen of the Broken Hearts
'Cause she's not kind of
I'm tellin' all the world
She was born the Queen of the Broken Hearts
She was born the Queen of the Broken Hearts
She was born the Queen of the Broken Hearts
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Mike Reno / Paul Warren Dean

One Love
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Making Love Out of Nothing At All
Posted:Nov 13, 2019 4:38 am
Last Updated:Nov 14, 2019 5:39 am
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Will Continue, First Comment

HNW Cat Lady Style
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STORM
Posted:Nov 12, 2019 9:24 am
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2019 2:44 pm
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Storm;

You know who you are, it's Mother Nature calling.

You know how to contact , I won't be going first this time, Father Time.

It's YOUR TURN

Intellectual, Philosophical, and Emotional Conversations REQUIRED

No more fuck and leave, that shit wasn't fair and you know it.

Luv

Debbi



My Ideal Person Free Thinkers Only

S.L.U.T.
By Bea Miller

I love myself, I wanna see it
When I turn around, look in the mirror
And if you don't like it, you can leave it
'Cause it's my own and I'll keep owning it
If you don't like what I'm wearing
Well, you're only bothered 'cause you're staring
And you'll never talk into caring
'Cause it's my own and I'll keep owning it
I'ma do just what I want on the regular
And it's really not my fault if you're scared of a
Sweet little unforgettable thing, unforgettable
Sweet little unforgettable thing, so incredible
Know that I'm not sorry, I'm just loving my body
I don't care if you scared of a sweet little unforgettable thing
I love my ass, I wanna shake it
You can thank my mama 'cause she made it
Don't you waste your breath tryna change it
Just mind your own and I'll keep owning it
We gotta learn to stick together
Love your color, gender or whatever
'Cause your happiness don't need a censor
Just mind your own and we'll keep owning it
I'ma do just what I want on the regular
And it's really not my fault if you're scared of a
Sweet little unforgettable thing, unforgettable
Sweet little unforgettable thing, so incredible
Know that I'm not sorry, I'm just loving my body
I don't care if you scared of a sweet little unforgettable thing
Shame, shame, shame on me, shame, shame, shame
Shame on me, baby, I ain't gon' change
Shame, shame, shame on me, shame, shame, shame
Shame on me, baby, I ain't gon' change (no, no, no)
Sweet little unforgettable thing, unforgettable
Sweet little unforgettable thing, so incredible
Know that I'm not sorry, I'm just loving my body
I don't care if you scared of a sweet little unforgettable thing
Shame, shame, shame on me
Shame on me, baby
Shame, shame, shame on me
Shame on me, baby
Sweet little unforgettable thing
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Beatrice Miller / Ido Zmishlany / Stephenie Nicole Jones
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MAGA
Posted:Nov 12, 2019 6:23 am
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2019 5:54 am
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Will Continue, First Comment
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Youre So Vain
Posted:Nov 12, 2019 4:14 am
Last Updated:Nov 14, 2019 5:15 am
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You walked into the party
Like you were walking on a yacht

Uh, no, I am usually just the wallflower a party, I like “watch” first.

Your hat strategically dipped below one eye

I hate most hats, and don’t feel like I look all good them Carly.

Your scarf, it was apricot

Oh…I like color


You had one eye on the mirror

Okay, okay, sometimes I look



And watched yourself gavotte

What’s a gavotte? Oh yeah, I have a search engine. Hold on…oh, it’s a French dance from the th Century. I love dance, and I love period pieces.

And all the girls dreamed they’d be your partner
They’d be your partner, and

If they did, you were actually dreaming

You’re so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You’re so vain,
I’ll bet you think this song is about you
Don’t you?
Don’t you?



Well, I don’t think I’m vain, I actually think I’m goofy as hell. but, yes, maybe this song is about ….

Oh, you had several years ago

It was more like about forty years ago when this song came out

When I was still naive

Yep, I was naive too

Well, you said we made such a pretty pair

It’s possible…

And you would never leave

I usually leave

But you gave away the things you loved

I swear, it’s not you..it’s .



And one of them was

I wasn’t giving you away, you’re your own person

I had some dreams, they were clouds in coffee

Did you? I hate coffee

Clouds coffee, and

If there are clouds your coffee, maybe you shouldn’t drink it

You’re so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You’re so vain, you’re so vain
I’ll bet you think this song is about you
Don’t you?
Don’t you?

Okay, maybe this song is really about …

Well I hear you went Saratoga

No, I went to Michigan and Maine

And your , naturally, won

Do I have a ? Let look….nope none present



Then you flew your Learjet up Nova Scotia

I don’t like fly, it scares the bejesus of . And, I haven’t been Canada since I was a young adult

see the total eclipse of the sun

I’ve seen one, but it wasn’t Nova Scotia

Well, you’re where you should be all the time

I certainly try be, but Father Time and I STILL have “issues”. I tend get confused when I plan and don’t plan well


And when you’re not, you’re with some underworld spy

Moi?

Or the wife of a close friend,
Wife of a close friend, and

Uh no, doesn’t sound like me

You’re so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You’re so vain, you’re so vain
I’ll bet you think this song is about you
Don’t you?
Don’t you?

No, I actually no longer think this song is about me. Why did I think this song was about me?



Why yes, yes I do think I’m hysterical.


MAGA
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